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Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing starts
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off

i love this song.
its my song.

i want to go there so badly.
Its far from here, but I'm not doing it to leave this place.
I'm doing it so i expand my photography.
I know i can do it. i know i can be a big time photographer!
i have the heart to do it.
I can do it.
then all my ex-girlfriend will be sad because i become someone in this world
i can do it.
and i will do it.
its a promise

I still love you.
but i cant tell you that anymore.
You took me for granted.
All im waiting for is for you to go on myspace and put on your, mood:loved
and say i found him! i feel happy something like that.

:/
that will make me hate you, and not want to talk to you

but i do love you.
i think about you everyday.
but when i do think about you, i try to think of the bad stuff so i dont think of the good things anymore. because thats what you do..

I'm done.
You destroyed my heart, i didn't think you could destroy my heart over and over aging, you didn't just destroy it you burn my heart into ashes. And those ashes turn me into a new Omar. Those ashes use to be red, because it use to represent love. Now because you destroyed my heart over and over aging, while it was healing you turned my heart black. and those ashes which use to be red are now black.
You gave birth to a new Omar.
A new me
because of all your actions.
You shaped me into a new Omar.
Two tattoos in my both feet. Both representing the new Omar.
The Omar that you created.
That is full of hate.
that was born to hate you.
that feels nothing for you anymore.
that doesn't want to know anything about you anymore.
that doesn't give a fuck about love anymore. Or any girl anymore.
I don't fucking care about you anymore.
I'm out of your life, i don't want to hear anything about you anymore.
You mean nothing to me.
You are what i hate in this world.
You brought out the Omar that has been waiting inside for years to come out.
You don't know me anymore.
No one knows me anymore.
I am what the title says.
I am a Assassin.
A assassin who will steal any girl's heart before they ever hear a thing.
I'm an Assassin.

i drove up the mountain today with my friends.
and all i thought of was you.
how i wanted you there with me.
we always wanted to do that.
remember?
i text you.
you texted me back.
for only 5min.
never heard from you aging.
why?
do you hate?
do i bother you?
do you not like talking to me?
do you like someone else?
love someone else?
going out with someone?

what is it?
tell me?
please?
im going crazy.

"come with me, my love to the sea the sea of love, i want to tell you how much i love you"

hanging out with you going to your house at night, texting you everyday. just makes me love you so much more.
and i want to say it, but i can't you will ignore me, or something worse.
i want to tell you so much.
I want to spend this last year with you, before you leave me forever.
I love you lupita

Hmmmm...i have yet to find the school that i want to go to for photography.
i really want to go to ICP but its to much, and probably to hard to get into.
But i want to try.

What did i do to get this?
did i say something for you to not want to talk to me?
did i do something?
what did i do?

You know how i feel about you, and honestly you play with my heart so much.
you ignore me.

I try so hard to impress you, for you to say that i want you back omar. i love you.
but nothing works
i try to look my best everything we are going to hang out but that dosnt work.

Tony and Richard know how to catch your eye.
but not me.
why not me?

I must confess that everything i am doing right is for you.
everything..

darling, i want to.

I love you, so much that at times it hurts.
You are everything i want.
When we hang out, i know nothing bad could happen because when you and I are together the world becomes peaceful.
And everything I'm with you i have no clue what to do, you make me nervous.
I love it!
And when i see you, i just stop and stare at you and look at what amazing beauty god has brought down to earth for me to look at.
Your voice always makes me happy, and smile. And when you laugh it just makes my day, its the cuties laugh ever.

I could go on, but i don't know i would prefer to tell you in person.
But i fear if i do that then i would ruin everything....

I love you

you did it to me aging!!!
you keep on playing me!!
stop!
fuck!
you know how i feel about you and you still do it!
i thought we were past this!
but oh no i was wrong!!

well fuck you!

I really want to go to fat camp. :)
Not to go to lose wait, but to be a cabin leader.
That will be one of my goals to do.
I'm watching it right now on mtv and it seems really cool.
ha

Other then i could eat all the junk food, in front of the fat kids, hahaha

A man can dream though..

I do not want to talk to you.
I hate you.
You only come to me when you are lonely and you need me.
Then you leave me.
And then you come back and do it aging.
You have done so much to hurt me.
and yet now you still hurt me
i want to move away from here..for you.
i wish i would have never talked to you, or loved you
and that you never loved me.

i love you so much!
i hope you know, that i love you so much
im going to miss you.
guy's don't cry, so i have to try and not cry.
we didnt get a happy ending.
I'm going to miss you.
But i know you want to go on with your life.
But i want you to know that you will always be my "one"
i love everything about you.
you are perfect for me.
I though i was those lucky few people who meet there "ones" early on in life.

bye.
Lupita <3

this is will be my last post about you.
I'll always love you, and i will miss you.
you will always be on my mind...no matter.
if we are meant to be then one day we will be back together.

anyone here for me.
i want to go away from here.
i hate thinking about you every fucking day.
my life is so horrible.
i have to stop talking to you.
i have to lupita!
you dont know how much my mental health is being fucked up.

I fear that if we, even though we aren't or hanging out that much now
since you get made at me everyday and for everything i do now.
But i fear that my life will go do down because i still have you.
I need you to tell me that you either love me or you don't love me, or that you hate you me and you never want to talk to me.

i need that lupita!
so i can move on.
even though it will be hard i need to stop talking you to you.
your not the only one who has a fucked up life, i need this.

i love you to much for me to be like this.

you dont need me in you life.
i know you want me to go.
and
i know you want to drift away from me..

I know what you want now.
And that's not me.
I guess..there's nothing i can do.
you don't love me anymore.
like how i love you.
You want me out of your life.
and you ex-boyfriends get you mad.
so i think its finally time for me to let go, and to not talk to you
i love you to death, and i will always love you.
but that's not how you feel about me.

oh well..

i love you lupita, but i want you to know that deep down inside, I hate you, i hate you for coming back to my life, i hate you for asking me to go to your house at night.
i hate everything about you.
i wish i could tell you this.
but i can't im scared to do it.
just like you
but from here on out i will no longer talk to you, speak to you, text you, call you.
or anything.

bye lupita.

i hate you.

how is it that even the one person who i thought like me would never drink would...

life is full of surprises.

i though you were different, but i guess i was wrong.
your just like everyone else.
like every other girl.

whatever

It's really over, you made your stand
You got me crying, as well as you planned.

I didn't think it was going to end like this for you and I.
I really thought we were going to get back together.
Everything seemed fine to me.
We acted like we were going out.
I said i loved you, you said it back
You came back to me.
Maybe it was the fact that i acted like your bf.
and i didnt give you your space like i should have.
I shouldnt think about this anymore
i should move on, like you said.

But i love you..I really do.

i wish i can prove to you that that im sorry, and show you how much i love you.
because i do.

im never going to be able to talk to you, or see you anymore.

I miss you, i dream about you so much, and i think about you everyday.
i wish i can call you or txt you about how my days are.

i wish i could call you mine all over aging.....

i write this here because no one read this.

I'm sorry Lupita, i love you and i will always love you
Your the only person that i will ever love this much.

----Omar Guzman

i know something is up with you.
and i want to find out what it is.

i know something is up, i know it

and i hate the fact that your not telling.

hmmm......

but is it.

something is telling me that its someone else.

i really hope I'm wrong.